Hi, dude~
What are you feeling now? Because I' feeling bad... Should I express my feeling here? It just I'm having bad mood for these few days.
Yes! I didn't show to people what inside of my heart because not only me have problems so why I've to show and tell people that I'm so hateful am I right? Do you get what I try to say?
Okay! Let me just write all random huh? :)
Lately I'm having bad relationship with my roommate. Only we two in the room. We started be friend at our working place and I'd problem with my hostel on my semester break so I decided to move to other place. She'd said that she doesn't want to live with people who working in the same place but because of "pity" on me so she allowed me to live with her in a room. By means, we share the room. Of some issue I tried to accept her, everything about her but what can I see she seems like can't accept anything about me. It's such unfair right? So, to avoid misunderstanding I tried to followed her way. She hate this, I won't do this! She hate that, I won't do that! She is hot-tempered and same like me but can you think how would happened if fire with fire be together? It would explode huh? So, I choose to be water but in the way of being cool which is who I am. I ignore everything!
I didn't talk with her, I avoid to sleep beside her, I only do my things. Yes! Everything only my own but suddenly she gave me a note on my table. Why so suddenly?! She wrote that something that I can't understand until now. It was last few days. She said that she is not my maid. WTF she talking about?! Did I? I did touch her stuffs but that was only the time I moved in this house and that was because I didn't bring all my things so I borrowed some of she's but she text me (even we both in the room) don't ever touch or use her things. Okay, I take note and I didn't do it until now. BUT WHY she kept touch my stuff? Can you see how I hate you touch it but why you still use it and never put on the same place back! WHO ARE MAID NOW?! Yes! I did said that "you can use it and I don't mind" but hey dude you did said the same thing to me but why suddenly you changed and said something like I'm looks so "batak" with your stuff?! YOU DAMN BITCH huh? :)
One thing I wish to say to you one day is, "Please don't do something that you hate when other people did to you", okay?
You getting mad when people noise such talking phone aloud because you said people bothered your sleep time, your rest time but do you realize that you did the same thing? How can people accept you if you can't do the same way?
You ask me do this and that, okay fine I do it the way to be nice in our relationship that only begin but every time I ask your help what did you do? You will make the sound that I hate most right? And you asked me to do it myself with your face like !@#$%^&*(). About the "maid" thing, WTF you wrote it? When the hell you did clean the room? HUH?! I know you did but I never seen my area was cleaned because of you bitch! I did my own la~ So, WTH you bringing up such thing, idiot!?
Do you try to bother my life or what? Almost a month I didn't bother you and why you gave that note? WHY?! Every night I didn't sleep because I've been disgusted to sleep beside you. I'm sorry to say this but every time I want to sleep I can't because of some feeling towards you. So, I'll sleep when you will wake up to working so that I won't see your face same with I won't stay at home when you're at home.
BECAUSE I STARTED TO HATE YOU!
I'M SORRY TO TELLING THIS TO YOU!
PLEASE DO YOUR OWN THINGS AND I'LL DO THE SAME WAY!
PLEASE DO YOUR OWN THINGS AND I'LL DO THE SAME WAY!
I'D IGNORED EVERYTHING! YOUR TEXT, NOTE AND THAT SOUND TO AVOID WE FIGHT!
So...
Please...
I beg you because I'm tired to have this feeling, to hate someone and everything.
p/s: Readers! I'm sorry to post this but I can't tell people these because I'm not someone who will tell everything to people. I don't know how to share my feelings. I think few times to write here and I decided to write it. Sorry to being annoying.
Sorry...